The man who was taken away by the season

Chapter 10 10 Who's in the name of love

The next day, Zhou Haihe, who was a little confused when he opened his eyes, took 2 minutes to slowly retrieve his memory.Turning around and looking at Zheng Zizai who was lying in his arms, he suddenly didn't know what to say.Zhou Haihe's mood was a bit complicated, he knew that last night he was not a drunken 419, he just understood his sincerity better through the alcohol.The boy in his arms who had been chasing him for a year, asked him last night, "Zhou Haihe, do you know who I am?" He couldn't help but examine whether he had gone too far. Being able to stop the car is really a bit unexpected.

Zhou Haihe knew that Zheng Zizai was serious about liking him, even though he acted in a non-serious attitude from outsiders.But as the person involved, as long as you feel it with your heart, you can know that the other party is out to play, and you still treat it with your heart.But Zhou Haihe doesn't mean that he has no grievances about his feelings. He is not a person who forgives himself easily-in the case of Liu Nan, Zhou Haihe is really not satisfied with his performance at all.Although loving someone should be relentless, but after the reunion, being too humble and almost taking a wrong step made Zhou Haihe reject the dark side of his heart.

Life is always prior to other things that people have to face, Zhou Haihe thought that he didn't have much ability to control everything well without violating his own principles.So most of the time he just watched from a distance, not making decisions easily.And Zheng Zizai, this time, was indeed forcing him.Zhou Haihe knew that everything that happened last night couldn't be explained by simply saying he was drunk.Zheng Zizai may not have malicious intentions, but it is undeniable that he was not open enough in this matter, while Zhou Haihe chose to indulge himself for a while.

I thought that the two of them were the same, and no one should talk about the other, and each took what he needed.But, in the end, what do they need?Does Zheng Zizai want a 419 that he forgets when he turns around?Does Zhou Haihe want a one-night Q with no burden?It seems that they are not, but at the same time, they made a decision that made everyone think that was the case.After waking up, both of them were very frustrated.

Zhou Haihe thinks he is a bit funny——if he has no idea about this person, just stay away from him, let him give up, and let himself feel at ease; Well, don't ask for the future.But what is this now?Zhou Haihe didn't quite know what kind of mentality it was like yesterday when he made mistakes by drinking wine, but at this moment he despised himself very much.

"Hmm~" When Zhou Haihe was still thinking wildly, Zheng Zizai, who was curled up in his arms, opened his eyes with a groan.Rubbing his eyes as if he was a little confused about the situation, he opened them again, and then called out cautiously, "Zhou Haihe."

I don't know when it started, but the person who was sticking behind him and calling him "Haihe" has started to call him by his first and last name, with a bit of forbearance and a little alienation.Zhou Haihe sighed secretly in his heart, but decided to face up to this matter.

"Zhou Haihe, yesterday, yesterday was me..." Zheng Zi got up quickly after waking up, and put on his nightgown with his back to Zhou Haihe.

"You..." Zhou Haihe didn't know how to speak, even though the other party was not a woman, last night was not entirely his responsibility.

"I'll take a shower first." Zheng Zizai went to the bathroom with some difficulty without waiting for Zhou Haihe to say more.Both of them drank a lot yesterday. Although they were not unconscious when they hugged each other, they were indeed a little excited.You can't ask two emotional people to be more restrained, let alone one who has been empty for several years, and the other who has pursued and longed for hundreds of days.They are all full-blooded men, no one needs to be more rational, and no one planned to be rational last night, so what they did seems to be a bit too much... Both of them are traces of love, and they just hugged and slept stickily I didn't feel it at the time, but it was really uncomfortable after waking up.

Listening to the sound of water coming from the bathroom, Zhou Haihe blushed involuntarily, thinking of his roughness during the process last night and his ungentleness afterwards, this really blushed.In the past, to Liu Nan, well, at this time, I really shouldn't think of that person.But no matter what, Zhou Haihe has always been a gentle and considerate person, and this is the first time that he only cares about his own happiness and pleasure in bed and ignores the other person's feelings.

"Is it because the window has been empty for too long?" Zhou Haihe laughed at himself, but he knew in his heart that it was the young body and the enthusiastic person that made him crazy.I don't want to admit it because I don't want to face this fact, I don't want to admit that I am attracted by Zheng Zizai, I don't want to admit that I actually want to hug this body and this person.

"Zhou Haihe, go take a shower first." Zheng Zizai, who was talking while wiping his hair, still didn't look at Zhou Haihe as before.

"Okay." After nodding in agreement, Zhou Haihe left the space where the two were alone as if fleeing.

When Zhou Haihe came out of the wash, Zheng Zizai had already changed his clothes, and he seemed to have returned to his previous expression of indifference, but Zhou Haihe still saw the bitterness and helplessness in his eyes very accurately.Zhou Haihe still hadn't figured out how to deal with it. He spent a long time in the bathroom just now, but he didn't get the answer he wanted. Sometimes the effect of time is not so effective.

"I'm leaving first, the rent has already been paid, and your clothes will be sent back in a while." Zheng Zizai said hello and walked out the door. Zhou Haihe who rushed over quickly grabbed his arm, The hotel just delivered the ironed clothes and they were wrinkled, but no one cares anymore.

Zheng Zizai finally looked at Zhou Haihe squarely, but his face was a little pale. Maybe it was because he didn't sleep well, or it was caused by his physical discomfort. Zhou Haihe didn't go into it. He only knew that he couldn't let this person go now.For some things, it may be better to have a meeting.

"Zi Zi, what happened yesterday, we are a little out of control." Zhou Haihe felt his head hurt again, but he didn't let go of his hands to rub it. He was afraid that this proud man would leave as soon as he let go.

"They're all men, so there's nothing wrong with it. Yesterday, just treat it as an accidental 419." Zheng Zizai tried to break away the hand that was clutching him, but failed, and continued, "But, I really love you. "

When Zhou Haihe heard the last sentence, he loosened his hand, and then tightened it again, but the person opposite him stopped talking.That being the case, Zhou Haihe had no choice but to continue, "I know."

What the two of them talked about later, only a small number of people knew about it after a long time, but it was soon known to everyone that Zheng Zizai was still sticking behind Zhou Haihe, but Zhou Haihe was no longer as cold as before. chased away.He would also ask him to go back to class or not to disturb others. Zheng Zizai was still joking, but he only appeared next to Zhou Haihe after finishing his own affairs.

Everyone gradually got used to Zhou Hai and having one more person by his side, but they didn't seem to want to date anymore.At noon, they would sit together to eat, but they each ate their own food. After eating, they would go back and go to work on their own affairs.Occasionally, I would see them chatting. Zheng Zizai was always idling, while Zhou Haihe was always silent and calm.

"Zhou Haihe, I'm leaving. I'm going back to China starting tomorrow. See you next semester." Zheng Zizai didn't wait for Zhou Haihe's response, so he left on his own. Maybe he's used to Zhou Haihe always being busy. What is happening, never in the state of the state.

And Zhou Haihe, who was sorting out the data at the side, raised his head from the computer and wanted to say "Happy Holidays" when he found that the man had already turned around and couldn't see his shadow.It suddenly occurred to me that probably after that time, Zheng Zizai never called him "Haihe" again.

After Zheng Zizai worked so hard to pursue Zhou Haihe for half a year, the young master Zheng Zizai couldn't wait any longer, so he dressed himself up and squatted at the door of Zhou Haihe's house on Valentine's Day.

"Haihe!" Zhou Haihe, who had just come out of the laboratory and caught the last train home, was slapped on the back in a daze.

"Haihe, Happy Valentine's Day. Iloveyou!" After speaking, Zhou Haihe kissed him without waiting for a response.At this time, Zhou's father, who was awakened by the sound, just got up and opened the door, just in time to see a man throwing himself into his son's arms and kissing him passionately.Although I have heard Zhou Haihe's words before, know his sexual orientation, and have stayed abroad for several months to see couples kissing each other, and even saw the intimacy of same-sex couples, but when it happened to my son , The shock in my heart is still unimaginable.Although Zhou's mother who came with her only saw her son talking about a man who had been pulled off her body, she probably guessed the truth by looking at her husband's expression.

"Zheng Zizai! I don't know you that well, just call me Zhou Haihe from now on. If you want to play, you can find anyone, don't pester me anymore, okay? I still have too many things to do, really I don’t have the time and energy to accompany you to do these things.” Zhou Haihe watched his parents standing at the door feel powerless, and couldn’t help shouting at the person who had been clinging to him for half a year.Probably, it is really too gentle, which makes people feel that there is still room for it, and that's why it's like this.

"Yes, I'm sorry." Zheng Zizai also saw Zhou Haihe's parents at this time, his face turned pale, and he hurriedly apologized and ran away without saying much.He didn't know how much Zhou Haihe's parents knew, but only understood how much this incident had impacted a pair of traditional Chinese parents.

Afterwards, Zheng Zizai approached Zhou Haihe formally and informally many times, but Zhou Haihe ignored him.No matter how much he apologized, that person ignored him. Shang Ke would still guide him well, and he would never be sloppy when it came to his studies, but he didn't mention a word about other things.

Probably, the kindest people are the cruelest when they are cold.

Zhou Haihe didn't care about it at that time, but after that, Zheng Zizai would still stick to him, but he really called him by his first name.No matter how melodious and lingering, there can't even be any slight warmth in addressing them by first and last name, let alone the voice of a big man with a little bewilderment.From then on, Zhou Haihe understood that the so-called love or not, that's all. In the past, it was just his own misjudgment, so he felt that he couldn't live without it.

But then Zhou Haihe didn't understand. He obviously retreated from the person, but he still clings to him, and confesses whenever he catches him regardless of the occasion or time.All kinds of straightforward, implicit, positive, and gentle confessions seem to have never stopped, and the frequent ones suddenly disappear, and everyone is not used to it.At that time, Zhou Haihe found that he was not used to it, but he didn't try to change it.Liking is a very cool thing, and it doesn't last long.

Zhou Haihe thought, whether he loves or not is just a pretense, but because life is too long and a little lonely, he wants to find something to coax himself.This kind of emotion comes and goes quickly, without any external force at all, it will collapse easily.Zhou Haihe saw his own defeat, and he also dismissed the persistence of others.