not can't lose

Chapter 10

"Can I take a shower with you?"

Ning Qiu even thought he had heard wrong.

When Lin Xiao was very young, Ning Qiu, who had been living with her grandmother, was picked up by her mother once and brought to Lin Xiao's house for the holiday.

At that time, Lin Xiao might be four or five years old, or five or six years old. However, Lin Xiao has grown one size bigger than his peers since he was a child. He looks like a child in elementary school, but he is actually still in kindergarten.

Lin Xiao was white and tender when he was a child, as beautiful as a delicate doll, and very polite. He saw Ning Qiu sitting on the sofa reading a book, so he crawled to Ning Qiu's side and sat obediently, looking into Ning Qiu's hands. The book, and read the words he knew one by one.

At that time, Ning Qiu was in junior high school and was about to be promoted. When he saw this baby bump of the Lin family, he knew that this kid, Jingui, could not be offended, but in fact he liked it, because few people would dislike such a well-behaved and beautiful kid. He looked at Lin Xiao If he didn't know some characters, he would read out the characters that Lin Xiao didn't know and let Lin Xiao learn.

After a while, the nanny came to take Lin Xiao to take a bath, but Lin Xiao refused to leave, and grabbed Ning Qiu, and Lin Xiao didn't listen to the nanny's good words.

Now Ning Qiu understood the true meaning of the saying that a child is a devil. Lin Xiao was rarely well-behaved, but most of the time he was spoiled. Ning Qiu could only say, "I'll read it to you after you take a bath. Auntie, can I take a shower?"

Lin Xiao tilted his head and thought for a while, then said, "Will you take a bath with me?"

Ning Qiu finally went to take a bath with Lin Xiao.

Lin Xiao is just a child, sitting in the bathtub playing with little yellow ducks, spilling water all over the bathroom, Ning Qiu was just sitting on the side to accompany him, but in the end Lin Xiao made his clothes wet, so he had to take off his clothes and leave. I took a shower and washed my hair.

This was the only time Ning Qiu took a bath with Lin Xiao, but at that time Lin Xiao was a child of about five years old.

Thinking of what happened back then, Ning Qiu immediately felt even more embarrassed, and felt a strong sense of shame and self-blame.

Because at this time, he was able to completely connect the adult in front of him with the child back then.

What happened last night instantly made him ashamed.

At this moment, Ning Qiu felt a chilling pain.

But Ning Qiu couldn't scold Lin Xiao, he just felt extremely ashamed and guilty of the "pleasure" he had last night.

Lin Xiao didn't know Ning Qiu's mental activities at this time, he just saw that Ning Qiu fell silent after he made that request, and looked several times, and finally stayed in pain.

Lin Xiao had no choice but to pretend to be pitiful, and said, "Brother, my back seems to be broken. It hurts all day today. Why don't you put a Band-Aid on me."

"Ah?" Ning Qiu came back to his senses.

"Okay, let me take a look." Ning Qiu put away the shame and guilt, and looked at the wound on Lin Xiao's back.

On the left side of Lin Xiao's back near the shoulder blades, there were two scratches, the skin was indeed broken, and it was red, and it hurt to look at it.

Ning Qiu is not a stupid person, so he immediately thought, could it be that he was caught by himself?

He looked at his hands, he didn't have fingernails, how could he scratch such marks, but he didn't dare to be 100% sure that he didn't scratch them, because sometimes he scratched himself inexplicably.

Ning Qiu silently sprayed Lin Xiao's wound with medicine and put on a Band-Aid, but in the end he didn't have the nerve to ask such shameless words about where the wound came from.

Lin Xiao said: "I have an injury on my back. If I take a shower by myself, the wound will probably get wet. That...uh..."

He seemed to be explaining why he and Ning Qiu had to take a shower together.

Ning Qiu did agree with his explanation, and felt a little less guilty in his heart.

Ning Qiu couldn't refuse Lin Xiao's request, but he didn't want to take a bath with Lin Xiao, so he just washed Lin Xiao's back, and he left the bathroom.

Seeing Lin Xiao's strong and muscular body, Ning Qiu would not think of him when he was a child, which also made Ning Qiu feel less guilty.

This weekend, Ning Qiu had a very difficult time. He thought that this matter was over and that he would be fine in the future.

Unexpectedly, this matter is an endless loop.

Another two weeks later, when Ning Qiu was about to completely forget about the previous incident, Lin Xiao crawled into his bed again.

This time, Ning Qiu resolutely resisted from the very beginning. He refused to let Lin Xiao kiss him, and said sternly, "Lin Xiao, it's very wrong for you to do this."

Lin Xiao looked at him aggrieved, like a poor kitten who just wanted to lean on the owner but was opened by the owner.

Ning Qiu reached out and turned on the light in the bedroom. Under the bright light, Ning Qiu looked at Lin Xiao seriously, and finally asked what she had always wanted to ask: "Why did you do this?"

Ning Qiu has already done some research on his own, and knows that even good brothers, masturbating with each other is not something that everyone does. Maybe some people do it, but Ning Qiu feels that he cannot accept this. people.

Lin Xiao blushed. He was already good-looking. At this time, under the light, he was as beautiful as flawless. His face was even a little unrecognizable.

Seeing him like this, Ning Qiu softened his heart, stretched out his hand to hold Lin Xiao's hand, and comforted him: "Lin Xiao, come on, stop making trouble, and go back to your bedroom. I don't care what you want to do, don't come make fun of me."

Lin Xiao looked at Ning Qiu silently, and did not leave.

Ning Qiu laughed angrily at him, and said, "Are you going?"

Lin Xiao said softly, "I...I want to be with you."

His voice was so low that Ning Qiu even thought he heard it wrong, "With me?"

Lin Xiao nodded, "Yes."

Ning Qiu said: "It's not good to do such a thing."

Lin Xiao said: "Don't you like it? Did I hurt you last time?"

Ning Qiu: "..."

Ning Qiu blushed instantly. He suddenly felt that he and Lin Xiao were not talking on the same channel. He was talking about morality and responsibility, while Lin Xiao was talking about pleasure and pleasure.

Ning Qiu would never say that you should find a girlfriend, maybe other elder brothers would teach his younger brother how to find a girlfriend, but Ning Qiu himself has always been single, he doesn't understand such things at all, and he also I feel that Lin Xiao is too young, and when he really finds a girlfriend, and the woman is pregnant, should he get married and have a baby?

Now that Lin Xiao can't protect himself, how can he support his wife and children?

Ning Qiu has a big head, he feels that he is not a competent brother, but he doesn't know what to do.

Ning Qiu looked at Lin Xiao frowning, feeling like he couldn't talk to him.

Lin Xiao stepped back at this time and said, "Would you like to come to the New Year's party? I'll leave you a ticket. I can get tickets for the first three rows."

It's not easy for Ning Qiu to refuse at this time, because if he refuses, it will be too shocking to Lin Xiao. He nodded: "Well, is it New Year's Day?"

Lin Xiao: "No, it's the night before the New Year's Day holiday. It starts at seven o'clock in the evening, in the school auditorium, can you come?"

Ning Qiu agreed.

Lin Xiao stopped making trouble with Ning Qiu. He lay beside Ning Qiu and whispered, "Brother, I want to be with you. It's true. You won't get married in the future, right?"

Only now did Ning Qiu realize Lin Xiao's meaning of "together", he was stunned, "Huh?"

Lin Xiao turned over and looked down at him with his arms propped up, "You don't want to get married."

Ning Qiu met his gaze in surprise, Lin Xiao said, "I'm not married either."

Lin Xiao's tone and words were very solemn, with the sincerity and concentration unique to young people, as if this was his only belief.

Ning Qiu understood what Lin Xiao meant. For the first time in a long time, he understood that Lin Xiao meant "being in love" together, that's why they had sex.

But this made Ning Qiu heave a sigh of relief, because he always thought that Lin Xiao would do that kind of thing with others if he was interested. This is too unprincipled and messy. On the contrary, this is normal, and Ning Qiu can understand and accept it.

It's just that if the object is not me, it's fine.

However, Ning Qiu didn't take Lin Xiao's "togetherness" too seriously. He thought that Lin Xiao was insecure and was too young at this time. It was as common as drinking water and eating, and it was not acceptable. letter.

Ning Qiu said: "You are still young, let's talk about it after you graduate and earn money to support yourself."

Lin Xiao was not disappointed. He thought Ning Qiu meant that he couldn't support himself, so he still wanted to fall in love and support his family?Such words are too unbelievable.Lin Xiao himself also agrees with this point of view, he hopes that he can support his family and Ning Qiu.

But Ning Qiu didn't mean that. He felt that Lin Xiao was now attached to his own life and would have a natural dependence on himself, and mistook this dependence on survival pressure as liking and longing to be together forever.And only when Lin Xiao can make money by himself, support himself, and completely leave this dependence, can he correctly examine his psychological needs, so that his "love" is really a feeling that comes from his own judgment.

Ning Qiu never wanted Lin Xiao to be tempted and treated unfairly emotionally, even if that person was himself.