not can't lose

Chapter 12

Lin Xiao had no scruples on the contrary, he chased Ning Qiu with his head down and kept kissing him.

Ning Qiu was blushing, and after hiding for a while, he finally avoided Lin Xiao, and then scolded him in a low voice: "What are you doing? Why are you so courageous? Are you not afraid of being seen?"

Lin Xiao had only one thought in his mind after dancing, and that was to sleep with Ning Qiu. Just kissing like this, he was already very restrained, but he would not tell Ning Qiu what he thought, otherwise Ning Qiu would definitely let him He goes.

Lin Xiao didn't answer, and when he realized that someone was approaching them, Lin Xiao quickly hugged Ning Qiu tightly again, and led him forward.

Ning Qiu had no choice but to suppress his anger, and followed Lin Xiao to the outside of the school.

No matter how sexual/cold Ning Qiu is, he can't stand Lin Xiao's teasing, but he is an extremely calm and rational person, and he will never want things to be controlled by emotion and develop randomly, so he is Really angry that Lin Xiao kissed him on the road.

When he found the car, Lin Xiao was sitting in the driver's seat. He threw his bag into the back seat of the car. Seeing that Ning Qiu was sitting in the passenger seat and fastening his seat belt meticulously, he acted passionately again. He leaned over to kiss him, from his kissed his lips, and then pressed his teeth hard...

Ning Qiu was surprised again, but just as he raised his hand to push Lin Xiao away, Lin Xiao grabbed his hand and clasped it tightly, and Ning Qiu had fastened his seat belt just now, but tied himself up so that it was inconvenient to move .

Ning Qiu resisted for dozens of seconds before giving up and letting Lin Xiao kiss.

From the initial avoidance to non-violent non-cooperation, Ning Qiu had to respond to Lin Xiao's enthusiasm in the end.

Time seemed to pass very slowly, but also seemed to pass very fast. Lin Xiao finally sat on the starter and drove the car out of the parking space, while Ning Qiu was still in Tao Taoran's state.

Ning Qiu seemed to be in a daze, he didn't move at all, he just moved his eyeballs slightly, looked at Lin Xiao, and then continued to sit there in a daze.

The real situation is that Ning Qiu is not in a daze, he is thinking about many things in his mind.

However, after thinking about many things, there was still no result in the end.

Ning Qiu's job content is the research and development of aviation/weapons/weapons/intelligence, and he is the technical backbone and the project leader of two small directions. Of course, his family and Lin Xiao don't know about these things, everyone only knows Which unit does he work in? I don't know what he does specifically, nor what kind of work his unit does.

Some of Ning Qiu's older colleagues feel that they cannot keep up with the social trend. Of course, Ning Qiu himself is not much better, but just not keeping up with the social trend does not mean that he is out of society.

Ning Qiu still knows a lot of things, and her way of thinking has not been completely domesticated by her way of working.

But no matter how you say it, no matter how you think about it, Ning Qiu still doesn't know how to deal with the relationship with Lin Xiao.

Drive Lin Xiao away and ignore him in the future, this kind of thing, Ning Qiu can't do it at all, besides, he is also reluctant to treat Lin Xiao like this.

If you don't do this, then Lin Xiao will still live with him. He sternly rejected Lin Xiao and asked Lin Xiao not to touch him. Ning Qiu glanced at Lin Xiao's side face for a few times, then moved his gaze down, He also noticed the unnaturalness between Lin Xiao's legs. Lin Xiao was already well-developed. How could he hide his appearance at this time? He scolded Lin Xiao himself and told Lin Xiao not to provoke him again , can Lin Xiao do it?Is this realistic?If it could be done, Ning Qiu felt that sows could climb trees.

Then there is only the last possibility left, and he just let Lin Xiao have an intimate relationship with him from time to time?

Ning Qiu was at a loss.

In fact, he was also tempted, but he didn't admit it.

Ning Qiu has a clear understanding of human nature and his own thoughts, and he wraps up those selfish thoughts with embarrassment, as if they look a little better.

The two of them didn't talk all the way. When they got to the door, Lin Xiao took the key to open the door. Ning Qiu remained silent. He pushed open the door and went into the room to change his shoes. He kept silent and his expression was sullen.

Lin Xiao didn't know what he was thinking. After entering the room and closing the door, he took off his shoes and didn't change them. He just stood on the ground with bare feet and looked down at Ning Qiu who had changed into cotton slippers.

When Ning Qiu was about to enter the living room, Lin Xiao grabbed his arm.

Ning Qiu had no choice but to raise his head and look back at Lin Xiao. Lin Xiao was so strong that he easily pulled Ning Qiu into his arms.

Behind Ning Qiu was the cabinet, and in front of him was Lin Xiao's face. His lips moved, not knowing what to say.

With hurt eyes, Lin Xiao asked, "Brother, do you hate me? Because I kissed you, you hate me."

Ning Qiu felt sorry for Lin Xiao, and couldn't bear to see him so sad, so he could only say, "No."

Lin Xiao: "Then why is it like this, don't talk to me, don't look at me, and don't feel happy."

Ning Qiu's eyes were very hesitant. His eyes turned around Lin Xiao's shoulders. Behind Lin Xiao was the etiquette mirror in the hall. He saw his "hypocrisy" in the mirror, so he turned his eyes away instantly and looked up at Lin Xiao. , Lin Xiao has a performance tonight, so he naturally wears makeup, so his facial features are more three-dimensional and beautiful than usual.

Ning Qiu suddenly buried her face on Lin Xiao's shoulder, closed her eyes and said, "It's nothing, I just... suddenly feel bored with myself."

Lin Xiao and Ning Qiu often disagree, the main reason is that their way of thinking is different.

Lin Xiao didn't know why Ning Qiu hated himself, and asked, "Why? Are you feeling unwell? It's cold tonight? Headache?"

It is normal for Ning Qiu to be ill, and Lin Xiao will associate his psychological pain with his physical pain.

Ning Qiu whispered: "No. It's just that I'm not in a good mood. I don't hate you."

Ning Qiu thought about his inner thoughts, but in the end he didn't have the courage to show Lin Xiao these things.

Lin Xiao was still young, and he worshiped himself, Ning Qiu thought, he shouldn't show him the most hypocritical side of human inner desires, it would definitely bring great harm to Lin Xiao.

Some people rely on epiphany, others rely on experience. Maybe Lin Xiao will experience a lot of hypocrisy, ugliness and pain in the future, but Ning Qiu doesn't like showing it to him.

He couldn't tell Lin Xiao that as the person who took care of him, he shouldn't have any sexual/sexual intimacy with him. Obviously abnormal desire, just because he himself has selfish motives.

What a hypocritical and sinful psychology.

Lin Xiao hugged Ning Qiu tightly, looked down at Ning Qiu with melancholy eyes, and said softly, "You really don't hate me, do you?"

Seeing that he was so anxious, Ning Qiu blamed himself even more, because Lin Xiao was indeed too young. Ning Qiu thought about his 20s. At that time, he had already been recommended for a master's degree in his senior year, so he went to the master's tutor first. After working on the project, I went to the test base with my mentor. At that time, a brother also took him.The senior brother is a very good person, he talked about almost everything to him, and taught him a lot of knowledge.Teacher and brother, everyone treats him very well, and the other teachers in the base are also very good and respectable people. He lives a fulfilling life every day, busy with research and testing in the direction he loves, and there are things he doesn’t understand , there is always someone who can solve his doubts...

Thinking of this, Ning Qiu felt more and more sorry for Lin Xiao, he was not a good brother, he failed to teach Lin Xiao well, and let him fall into a relationship that was not necessarily out of his heart, but more likely just because of his insecurity In pursuit.

Ning Qiu said: "I don't hate you. If you call me brother, I have the responsibility to teach you in the right way so that you can avoid detours, right?"

Ning Qiu is not a parent of "broken thoughts". Although Lin Xiao doesn't study hard, Ning Qiu will always get angry and teach him, but Ning Qiu doesn't talk much, but the punishment is very severe, but at this time, Ning Qiu has a sincere heart. Posture.

Lin Xiao didn't speak, he just looked at Ning Qiu.

Ning Qiu said: "I feel that if I condone you having an intimate relationship with me, I would be irresponsible to you, do you understand what I mean?"

Lin Xiao didn't understand, he said, "But I'm already an adult."

Ning Qiu said: "I know you are an adult, but you are much younger than me..."

Lin Xiao frowned and said, "What do you mean, you still hate me, that is, you don't want to?"

Lin Xiao is very good at grasping the point, he has Ning Qiu questioned now.

Lin Xiao's tone was so hurt that Ning Qiu didn't know what to say for a while.

Lin Xiao said again: "Why haven't you dated yet? It's because I've been living with you, and it's not convenient for you to find a girlfriend?"

Ning Qiu was afraid that he would have a psychological burden, so he said, "Of course not, I didn't find a girlfriend, it wasn't because of you."

Lin Xiao: "Why is that?"

Ning Qiu was stunned for a moment, why?

It's because Ning Qiu has never been pursued by anyone, and he himself has no intention of falling in love, and he has never really fallen in love with anyone so far.

When Ning Qiu was an undergraduate, there were only a few girls in the class, and everyone in the class was obsessed with studying. When he graduated, no one had a relationship. Until he graduated from university, Ning Qiu didn’t know how to have sex with girls. How to do it is not simple, but he has never paid attention to this aspect, so naturally he doesn’t know. After finishing his master’s degree, he met a lot of other people because of the project, and listened to others talking about men and women, men and men, etc. The pornographic jokes and other things, because he didn't understand, he went to understand some knowledge in this area, and only then did he know about this area.

After work, working overtime is commonplace, and I often travel on business. There are more men than women in the unit. Now I have no chance to meet interested girls, and naturally it is impossible to get a girlfriend.

To sum up, he has neither thought nor practical conditions.

Although it seems false to say "I don't have time to meet the person I like", but Ning Qiu really has no other reason to say, so he can only give this answer.

After hearing this, Lin Xiao naturally disagreed. He said, "You will never have time to meet the person you like in your life."

Ning Qiu was not angry, but just frowned, because Lin Xiao hugged him even tighter, and touched his ears with his hands, which made Ning Qiu feel very itchy.

Lin Xiao said: "Why don't you take a good look at me? Don't you think that having an intimate partner is an important part of life? Don't you like me? Are you not happy to make out with me?"

Lin Xiao's blunt words made Ning Qiu blush again, and the thing on Lin Xiao's lower body was so existential that it kept pressing against him.

Ning Qiu fell into a logical dead end for a while, because he himself had no emotional life at all, and he had never been in love. To be honest, he could not give Lin Xiao any help and guidance in this regard, and as Lin Xiao said , Lin Xiao admits that love life is one of the most important parts of his life, and he is different from a bachelor like himself.

For those who are lonely since childhood, some people will become very lacking in love and long for love, and some people will refuse others to enter their own world because they are used to loneliness.Ning Qiu even wondered for a moment whether he belonged to the former or the latter.

Ning Qiu felt embarrassed, but his heart warmed up because of Lin Xiao's words. His gaze met Lin Xiao's eyes, and Lin Xiao bowed his head to kiss him again. In the entanglement of lips and tongues, Lin Xiao said vaguely: "Why don't you love me?"

Ning Qiu couldn't even think about whether his question was coquettish or questioning.

Originally Ning Qiu wanted to reject Lin Xiao's intimacy for the sake of Lin Xiao's good, but in the end, in the world of these two, he was completely unable and powerless to take the lead, he was just a follower and addict.

After maintaining sex/relationship with Lin Xiao again, Ning Qiu woke up the next morning and couldn't recover for a long time. He already found that this relationship between himself and Lin Xiao was already a swamp. There is no way to climb out easily.