I'm off powder

Chapter 47

Shen Huai thought a little resentfully: Gu Hanshi was sure that he liked him - he knew he couldn't bear it.

Because he couldn't bear it, that's why he begged him to come back to him with a shy face when it was the most difficult time.

It was also because of reluctance, so he bit the bullet and swallowed the "rhetoric words" he used to bring a needle, and came to see him again.

There are still several hours of driving back to New York, and Shen Huai feels that the few hours when he and Gu Hanshi reunited have exhausted the energy of the day, and he no longer has any desire to socialize.

Although I'm sorry for Wu Tao, the "driver" who is going to drive at night, he still said "I'll sleep for a while" after getting in the car, then put on a sweater hat and closed his eyes.

Years of acting career has given Shen Huai the ability to fall asleep in the car under any circumstances, but today, for some reason, he was unexpectedly sober.

Clearly feeling tired, but not sleepy at all.

When I close my eyes, my mind is full of Gu Hanshi.

I don't know how long the car had been driving, but when Shen Huai thought of Gu Han's cold face of Seven, it stopped suddenly.

Shen Huai opened his eyes, looked ahead, and asked Wu Tao, "What's wrong?"

"I've been driving for three hours. I'm hungry and sleepy. I'm tired of driving without a break." Wu Tao said, "I'll go to the convenience store to buy a cup of coffee and smoke a cigarette... Hey, don't tell my sister ah."

Shen Huai said, "I'll go down with you."

"Are you hungry too?" Wu Tao was taken aback, "It's midnight, don't you celebrities have to control their diet?"

Shen Huai smiled: "I also buy a pack of cigarettes."

He started smoking only after he separated from Gu Hanshi.

I learned it when I was rebellious before, but I didn’t learn it. When it was the most difficult time, I smoked and choked, tears came out, but I continued, like self-torture.

And one day after the breakup, he found a pack of cigarettes that Gu Hanshi had left behind from the crack of the sofa at home, and he smoked one by accident, and it turned out to be smooth.

Since then, it has been out of control.

Zhang Yue scolded him when he found out, saying that it was too different from his usual personality.

At that time, Shen Huai laughed and said, "I'm in the third year, and I'm not a minor, what's wrong with smoking, and I haven't taken | drugs", Zhang Yue was so angry that he didn't give him a good look for a few days.

Wu Tao's expression was also a little surprised, but he didn't ask any more questions.

Shen Huai smiled wryly to himself, thinking that if this group of people knew that they liked a man, they would probably flood Weibo with their collective saliva.

Wu Tao and Shen Huai squatted in front of the convenience store and smoked.

They both hold a cigarette in their right hands, and their left hands—Wu Tao is coffee, Shen Huai is beer. Although they can't drink together, they are still enjoyable.

The night wind felt a little chilly on my body, but it was very comfortable.

Shen Huai hasn't felt so comfortable for a long time.

Maybe it's because here I can experience a feeling that I haven't experienced for a long time - wantonness and freedom.

He wears a mask and lives like a dream every day. He looks beautiful, but he can't catch it, and he always feels a dull pain that he can't breathe.

Fortunately, he has less than a year to leave.

It's just that he was very popular and retired bravely. I'm afraid that he will still live the life he is now for a long time to come.

Wu Tao's coffee was finished in a short while, he threw the cup far away, threw it into the trash can, and then took out his mobile phone.

His fingers didn't move at all. Shen Huai glanced at him and saw that his gaze was fixed on a blank WeChat chat interface. He coughed and asked, "Who do you like?"

"Ah." Wu Tao was taken aback by his question, obviously nervous, "Yes."

Look a little embarrassed.

Shen Huai is in a good mood, it's rare to gossip: "Haven't you confessed your love yet?"

"Ah."

"Afraid of being rejected?"

Wu Tao sighed, paused and said, "She's an American. She's a senior. She's a graduate student. She occasionally helps the professor lead our classes. She's smart, beautiful, and good at everything."

Shen Huai took a breath of cigarettes and teased him with a smile: "Oh, you have low self-esteem."

"..." Wu Tao put out the cigarette butt, "Yes. But I have never confessed my love to a girl."

What he said was straightforward.

Shen Huai thought, I had never confessed my love to a man at that time, so why not?

Gu Hanshi was still hiding.

Hid him for so long.

Thinking about it now is still a little uncomfortable.

Naturally, Shen Huai couldn't share these emotions with Wu Tao. Unexpectedly, Wu Tao glanced at him suddenly, and asked in a low voice, "You and Gu Yingdi...who took the initiative?"

Shen Huai was taken aback, the cigarette butt in his hand almost fell to the ground: "Did you see it?"

"Even the blind can see it." Wu Tao smiled, "It's too obvious."

Shen Huai's self-righteous intelligence was suddenly torn off, he couldn't help being a little embarrassed, coughed to cover up, and replied softly: "It's me."

Wu Tao nodded: "It's pretty similar."

Shen Huai: "..."

Both of them had consumed all their cigarettes and drinks, and the conversation finally ended in the darkness of night.

Knowing that Wu Tao already knew about his relationship with Gu Hanshi, Shen Huai felt more relaxed, and by the way, had a sense of intimacy with him. You said something to me, and you just returned to New York.

Wu Tao felt uncomfortable driving without getting drunk. When he arrived in New York, he invited Shen Huai to have a drink. Shen Huai declined, saying that he still had work tasks tomorrow, and he would be in trouble if he couldn't control his drunkenness.

With regret on Wu Tao's face, Shen Huai said: "When I finish my work, I will have a drink with you before I leave New York."

"Okay." Wu Tao said, "I'm free for this stage of the thesis, just a day or two. If you still want to go to Boston, call me anytime, and I can be your driver. Don't be shy."

Shen Huai was stunned.

He was really sad when he left Boston, but he never thought about going back.

Just now Gu Hanshi didn't intend to stay at all, he felt a little resentment in his heart; but if Gu Hanshi wants to see him again later, maybe it's true.

He also hated himself for not living up to expectations, always being led by the nose...

Over the years, Shen Huai had a lot of bad luck, and rarely "wish things come true". He didn't expect that he had just returned to the hotel this time, but he actually received a WeChat message from Gu Hanshi.

【Reached? 】

He deleted the chat history with Gu Hanshi when he was unblocked in the past, and now there are only three lonely Chinese characters and a question mark in their chat dialog box, which looks pitiful.

He didn't dare to distinguish the emotions in his heart at this moment, so he just watched the input cursor flashing and flashing, and always felt that he should not be too positive, so he replied after a while: [Just arrived]

Shen Huai thought that the time interval was long enough, but he didn't find out until he sent it out to see the time difference, it was only 3 minutes.

He waited anxiously for Gu Hanshi's reply, and continued to stare at the phone screen like a fool.

Just staring at it, it really feels like years.

After more than half an hour, Gu Hanshi didn't return.

Shen Huai was angry in his heart, if Gu Hanshi didn't say anything within an hour, no matter what he said later, he would definitely ignore it.

Obviously he was the one who wanted to add him back as a friend, so what's the matter now?

Thinking about it like this, he felt quite sad, and in the end he didn't hold back for an hour, so he took the initiative to send the message: [? 】

It's one o'clock in the morning, if Gu Han doesn't come back, just pretend he's asleep and forgive him reluctantly.

Although Shen Huai felt that it was unlikely that he would fall asleep within 3 minutes after asking "Are you there yet?"

This time, Gu Hanshi returned quickly: 【Is there something wrong? 】

Shen Huai was about to spit out a mouthful of old blood.

This is so fucking embarrassing!

He was so angry that he threw his phone on the sofa and went into the bathroom to take a shower.

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In Boston, Gu Hanshi looked at the phone screen in the dark with a smile on his face.

He thought that Shen Huai must have been mad at him, so he lost his voice.

Based on his understanding of Shen Huai, he won't talk to him until he wakes up tomorrow.

It has been a year, and from the first time he saw Shen Huai again, he knew that this person has not changed, not at all.

His temper, heart, uprightness, sincerity, and kindness are still deeply rooted in him.

I couldn't help but want to tease him.

On the other hand, it may be because you can't let go.

Gu Hanshi sighed lightly, feeling that he was quite worthless, and when he agreed to let go, he suddenly regretted it.

He can't pretend to be great, and he really isn't that great.

When Gu Han was about to turn off his phone and go to sleep, he suddenly received a voice call request from Jiang Yingxin.

He frowned and pressed the answer button: "It's so late, what happened?"

"Did you see it?! Le Shaokai was arrested!"

Jiang Yingxin's voice was unusually high-pitched, with obvious excitement.

Gu Han was taken aback for a moment: "What?"

"You're on Weibo! It's already on the trending list!"

Gu Han clicked in and took a quick look around.

Yes, the news source is very reliable, something happened to Le Shaokai.

And it's not just Le Shaokai, the entire Le family is involved.

The news is ambiguous, but probably the reason is related to economic crimes.

It is reported that Le Shi has been targeted for a long time, and this big fish that has been caught for a long time has finally taken the bait.

Gu Hanshi closed his eyes.

In fact, he hadn't thought about that incident for a long time.

Although it undoubtedly had a huge impact on his life, perhaps in the eyes of outsiders, that incident was the direct and only reason why he took a break and "fleeed" to the United States.

But he knew in his heart that that was just the last straw that broke the camel's back. His whole life had always been full of cracks, patched with fragile tape, so that he barely fell apart.

Jiang Yingxin didn't hear his voice for a long time, and asked anxiously, "Did you see it? If not, I'll take a screenshot..."

"I see." His voice was slightly low, "Thank you for telling me."

Jiang Yingxin didn't realize that his tone was too calm, but she still said excitedly: "You can rest assured! This guy is hard to protect himself, and he will definitely not pester you again!"

"Ah."

Jiang Yingxin went on to say: "Otherwise, you should go after Shen Huai again! You tell him the truth! He will definitely understand! Maybe he will cry with you!"

Gu Han laughed unconsciously: "You've been in too many soap operas, don't you?"

If he wanted to tell Shen Huai the whole story in order to maintain his relationship, he could have told him as early as when Le Shaokai threatened him.

The big deal is to play a breakup scene with Shen Huai.

They're actors, and it's a no-brainer for them.

But in the past year, when countless nightmares tormented him, he asked himself countless times, whether there was even half of his cowardice hidden behind it.

Then he found out that there were.

He simply could not take the risk of another man ruining his life to make him better.

He didn't have the courage to bear that kind of love.

But when he had made up his mind to avoid the risk and finally seemed to succeed, fate made him fall into that vortex again.

This time, even Le Shaokai's excuse was gone.

Forced him to face it again.

It is as if a deserter who has successfully escaped the battlefield for many years has to put on his armor and pick up a sharp knife again, and wait to achieve his exploits.

Very mean.