Severe Emotional Cleanliness Mutual Aid Group

Chapter 37

As soon as this incident happened, both of them were stunned. No matter how good-tempered Jin Chunan was, he couldn't bear this. He was shocked and sad, and his face turned pale.

Fang unexpectedly ignited that nameless evil fire, was stunned for a moment, and immediately regretted it.

He quickly apologized: "I'm sorry, I..."

Jin Chunan was really hurt. He waved his hands and didn't look at him. He went to the kitchen without saying a word, took a broom and dustpan to clean up the debris, and went to the bathroom to wash his hands.

Fang was so remorseful that he chased him to the bathroom, looked at him shyly, and said: "I... I really didn't mean it, I just feel a lot of pressure recently, and my temper is not going well, don't take it to heart go."

Jin Chunan turned the water to the maximum, rubbed his hands vigorously, and ignored him. In the trash can next to him, there were pieces of plates and soiled pastries.

After being together for so many years, Jin Chunan had never turned his face to him like this, Fang unexpectedly got anxious and reached out to hug Jin Chunan's waist.Jin Chunan didn't struggle, turned off the tap, wiped his hands with a tissue, and looked at him expressionlessly.

Jin Chunan was half a head taller than Fang, so condescending, showing a bit of rare oppression.Fang actually raised his head slightly, and apologized bravely: "Chu Nan, don't be angry, I'm really under too much pressure. I, I really didn't mean it."

Jin Chunan still didn't reply, and looked at him quietly with his black and white eyes open, as if he could see into his heart.

Fang unexpectedly avoided his eyes with a little guilt, felt that something was wrong, and moved back to meet his gaze.

Jin Chunan is a very wonderful person, he is very handsome, not a simple and honest handsome, but a very impactful handsome, which can often make people's eyes shine when they meet for the first time.But his demeanor is really too pure, he always smiles when he sees people, he will be embarrassed when there are many people, if you talk to him, he will look at you seriously, there is no trace of city in his eyes, frank And sincere.Maybe it's because his domestic and pure temperament is too strong, so thick that it covers up his overly handsome appearance. The longer people get along with him, the more they will ignore his appearance and only remember his good temper.

But at this moment, when Jin Chunan's face darkened and he put away his approachability, he suddenly changed, and he didn't seem to be Jin Chunan anymore.

He became strangely handsome and charming.

Fang Ran's heart skipped two beats under such a situation.

Fang unexpectedly raised his chin anxiously, kissed Jin Chunan on the cheek, hugged his hands tightly, and said in a low voice: "Chunan, I was really wrong, can you stop being angry?"

Jin Chunan looked at him for a while, sighed, lowered his head and kissed him on the forehead, and said, "Don't do this again."

Fang actually nodded quickly.

Jin Chunan's expression softened, and the tension between the two of them became less tense. Fang actually acted like a good boy, expressing that he was a little hungry and wanted to eat pastries.

Jin Chunan took a macaron, a Napoleon pastry, and an egg tart from the refrigerator, and microwaved them for 30 seconds. After thinking for a while, he made him a cup of black coffee with milk froth in it.

Fang actually really doesn't like desserts, but it's time to be cute, let alone desserts, he has to swallow even razor blades raw.While eating, he praised that the macarons were sweet but not greasy, the Napoleon crisps were crispy and delicious, and the egg tarts were full of flavor, and his mouth was full of tongues.

Jin Chunan knew that he was talking nonsense, but he still couldn't help being amused by him.After eating the cakes, Fang even watched a movie with Jin Chunan for the first time ever.

As a result, the relationship between the two returned to harmony, and this matter was turned over like this.

At least on the surface.

For the next few days, nothing happened between the two.Fang is still so busy that he doesn't touch the ground. Jin Chunan cooks at home every day, does housework and plays baking, and takes Fang Xiaonan to the park in the afternoon.

He went out as usual that day, took Fang Xiaonan by the hand, trotted around the park twice, and sat on the bench in a daze after the run.While he was in a daze, someone patted the back of the chair behind him. Jin Chunan turned his head and saw Mr. Fang Changfang whom he had met before.Mr. Fang was standing behind him, looking at him with a smile on his face.

Jin Chunan said pleasantly, "Mr. Fang, I haven't seen you for a long time!"

Jiang Changkan smiled, walked around from behind the bench, sat down beside him, and said heartily: "The work has been very busy these few weeks, and my subordinates can't take care of themselves. I can't afford the place, and I have to deal with trivial matters personally. I'm so busy that I don't even have time to sleep, let alone hang out."

Jin Chunan said enviously, "Mr. Fang, your career must be very successful."

Jiang Changkan waved his hand and said modestly: "It's not counted. There are more rich people. I've worked so hard all day, so I can barely be a middle class."

Jin Chunan didn't realize that he was self-effacing, so he quickly comforted him and said: "I think the middle class is very good, self-sufficient and self-sufficient. Although busy, they live a fulfilling life, which is quite enviable. It's not like me. I don't do anything every day. Except doing Housework is just walking the dog and reading a book, there is no ideal, no goal, life remains the same, without waves.”

Jiang Changkan asked in surprise: "You are a househusband? My wife works to earn money, and you take care of the family?"

Jin Chunan nodded embarrassedly.

Jiang Chang said with a smile: "I'm just envious of you. You don't have to work, you don't have to deal with difficult bosses and clients, you don't have to deal with complicated workplace relationships, you can walk your dog and go to the park every day, and you have a lot of time to enjoy life. If you can If so, I really want to trade with you."

Jin Chunan shook his head with a wry smile, and said nothing more.

Jiang Changkan reached out to touch Fang Xiaonan's head, but Fang Xiaonan refused to let him touch it, so he shrank back and hid by Jin Chunan's legs.Jiang Changkan withdrew his hand as if nothing had happened, and said with a smile: "However, your life style is not completely risk-free."

Jin Chunan was taken aback for a moment, then nodded and said, "Say it."

Jiang Changkan said with a smile: "It seems that you have considered this issue yourself. In fact, it is a cliché to give up your career to take care of your family. First of all, what does your wife think about this matter? Does he agree with your dedication to the family? He will Don’t you think that he is the pillar of the family, and you have nothing to do and eat for nothing? This sounds ugly, but even if a woman gives up her career to take care of her family and children, some people will think it is a useless burden with no contribution, even more What's more, you are a big man."

Jin Chunan said in a low voice: "I...I don't know what he thinks. He said he didn't like my job and asked me to choose between my career and him, otherwise I would break up. I really want to be with him , I gave up my job at the time.”

Jiang Changkan looked at Jin Chunan seriously, not letting go of the slightest expression on his face, and asked, "Then do you regret it now?"

Jin Chunan thought for a while, nodded, shook his head again, and slowly said: "Sometimes I feel regretful, but after thinking about it, I think it's worth it. We've had a very happy life these years."

Jiang Changkan raised his eyebrows: "Oh?"

Jin Chunan seemed to be lost in memories, and a warm smile appeared on the corner of his mouth: "When I first arrived at his house, I felt very... deserted, cold, and without fireworks. Before I lived with him, I always felt that he had a very good life. Wonderful person, good at dancing, able to chat with anyone, very humorous, very talkative, and has many friends. But when I saw his home, I thought he might not be as cheerful as he looked, and later lived together, I found out that his private life is actually very dull, watching TV and playing games, sometimes going for a run and swimming, the pressure of work is very high, and when he came back from a social event, he was full of alcohol and vomited on the toilet. Once I went to see my parents and came back in the middle of the night. When I opened the door, I saw him lying on the floor of the living room and fell asleep, throwing up a mess. It was winter, and the air conditioner and floor heating were not turned on. His down jacket had disappeared, so he was lying on the cold floor in a T-shirt, shrinking In a ball, shivering from the cold, but just like that... I still fell asleep. At that time, my nose was a little sore, and I thought, how many times in these years, he was shivering like this alone I lay on the ground overnight, and the next day I had to support my sick body to cope with heavy work."

"I just thought, I don't want to let him lie alone on the floor again. I want to treat him well. I hope that when he comes back, there will be warm lights and fragrant rice at home. I hope that he will go home after socializing. , someone can make him hangover soup, change his clothes and wipe his body, put him in a warm quilt, and then he can sleep comfortably, have a good dream, and wake up the next day I think life is beautiful. So, when he asked me to choose between career and family, I gave up my career."

"Over the years, I have been like a little mouse, moving rice grains into the nest bit by bit. I bought a lot of beautiful pillows, in the shape of pandas, in the shape of puppies and rabbits, in the shape of little yellow ducks and little yellow people, And Captain America... My wife said I was naive, but when he was lying on the sofa, he would pinch this and touch that from time to time, and later he would hug them and watch TV on the sofa. I am still There are many flowers and trees planted on the terrace, such as Chlorophytum, Hibiscus, Chinese Rose, Iris, Asparagus, Turtle, and two pomegranate trees. It was very tiring at the beginning, and it took a lot of time to take care of them every day. After growing them for a long time, they all gave birth The root is not so delicate, just water it every one or two days. He wakes up in the morning and likes to sit on the terrace to have breakfast and drink coffee, and sometimes he helps me water and fertilize. On weekends, we invite friends Drinking beer and grilling together on the terrace, the fragrance of flowers is refreshing, he looks very happy, not the fake smile that he usually deals with people, but the happiness from the bottom of his heart, whenever this happens, I feel that no matter what I give up, is worth it."

Jiang Changkan didn't speak for a while, neither did Jin Chunan, both of them were immersed in their own thoughts.

It's autumn now, and the leaves in the park are deeply fallen. When pedestrians step on them, they make a small and crisp cracking sound. The leaves on the trees are half yellow and half green, crumbling, and the breeze blows by, making a nice rustling sound.

But it will wither anyway.

Jiang Changkan was silent for a long time, and asked, "I can tell that you love him very much, but does he love you?"

Jin Chunan asked suspiciously, "Why do you say that?"

Jiang Changkan asked slowly and clearly: "Listening to what you said, it seems that you have been paying unilaterally for the years you have been together. You gave up your career for him, cooked for him, and made hangover soup. Covering the bed, buying pillows, planting flowers, you have done a lot, you think he should love you and be grateful to you, but apart from accepting your care and concern, has he really done anything for you?"

Jin Chunan was at a loss for words, he recalled for a while, and then thought, there should be, why not?

Why not?

Jin Chunan said without confidence: "He will chat with me and make me happy."

Jiang Changkan shook his head and said: "You said that he is a very humorous and talkative person. Making you happy may be just his conversation habit, and it cannot be taken as evidence that he loves you."

Jin Chunan asked: "If he doesn't love me, why is he with me?"

Jiang Changkan said: "I am used to it. I am greedy for your kindness to him. I can't bear to separate from you. I just want to live with you. There are many reasons for two people to be together. Love is not the only reason. Besides, if he loves you, Why did I break up with you in the first place?"

Jin Chunan lowered his head, feeling very uncomfortable. He opened and closed his lips a few times, but he didn't say anything.

Jiang Changkan patted him on the shoulder, smiled and comforted him: "Forget it, don't think about it, I'm an outsider, and it's a bit beyond the limit to say these things. Only you know your feelings best. I'm just guessing randomly. Don't take it too seriously."

Jin Chunan forced a smile and said, "Where is it, you also kindly want to help me."

Jiang Changkan smiled, then changed the topic, and said again: "Let me say one more word, don't think I'm annoying. If your current situation continues, it is actually very dangerous. You don't have your own job, so you stay here forever." At home, raising flowers and dogs to do housework is out of touch with society. If things go on like this, there will be fewer and fewer common topics between you, and when he works outside, he will meet all kinds of people, and there will inevitably be some temptations. At this time, if you return My family finds that there is no way to communicate with you, and there may be quarrels, frictions, or even...so, for the sake of your relationship, I suggest you go out to work as soon as possible."

Jin Chunan thought about it seriously, nodded, and said gratefully, "Thank you."