Chapter 134
Chapter 134
Han Cheng had a dream, an ethereal yet real dream.
He dreamed of Shen Qingshu sitting on the bed in a bright hotel - that was the hotel where they met for the first time. He came out after taking a shower. It seems to be very scared, and it seems to be very resistant.
Seeing this, Han Cheng changed into the clothes he had when he came here, and said to him, "Forget it, I think you are not ready, then you rest first, I will go to sleep next door."
As he spoke, he walked out, but just as he reached the door, he heard low sobbing.
He turned around in surprise, and found Shen Qingshu sitting on the bed, crying with his head down.
Han Cheng was puzzled and asked him, "Why are you crying? It's not because of your wish that we came here. Now that you don't want to, I'm going to leave. What's there to cry about?"
But the other party seemed to have been wronged, crying more and more fiercely.
Han Cheng had a headache, walked over, took out two pieces of paper and handed them to him.
Shen Qingshu took it and said thank you intermittently. He held the paper and cried for a long time before he seemed to be confiding, and told him why he had an appointment with him here, "My boyfriend cheated on me. .”
Han Cheng nodded, "Oh."
"He loves me, my parents don't like me, my adoptive mother doesn't like me, and my biological parents don't like me either."
Han Cheng: ...
Han Cheng could only comfort him, "Then you should like yourself more."
"I don't like myself either."
Han Cheng: ...
Hancheng is not very good at it.
He silently took out two more pieces of paper and handed them to the person in front of him.
Shen Qingshu took it and said, "I actually wanted to take revenge on him, that's why I asked you out. Since he cheated, why should I stick to him?"
"It's not necessary." Han Cheng persuaded him, "You can take revenge on him if he cheated, but there's no need to put yourself on the line. You can beat him or scold him. There's no need to wrong yourself and be yourself for him. things you don't like."
Shen Qingshu looked up at him, as if he didn't expect a stranger to listen to him so patiently and persuade him.
"You're fine."
"That's right." Han Cheng smiled, "So it can be seen that there are still good men in the world, but you need to keep your eyes open."
He talked with Shen Qingshu for half the night, and then he got sleepy and went to the room next door to sleep for the night.
The next morning, Han Cheng checked out of the room and returned to his home.
In fact, he also drank too much a few days ago, and downloaded this app that was said to be very popular recently on a whim, and dated someone obsessively. Now that he calmed down, he uninstalled the app.
A few days later, Yan Jiayu returned to China, he was still affectionate, and seemed to care about himself very much in his words.
Han Cheng felt annoyed, so he didn't bother to pay attention to him, and looked towards the dance floor.
Yan Jiayu deliberately teased, "Xiaocheng, you are really romantic as always. I came back from a long way from abroad, and you didn't even look at it. You just aimed your eyes at those little boys. Sure enough, it's not a waste of youth if people are not romantic?"
Han Cheng drank, and when he said that again, he deliberately responded, "Yeah."
Yan Jiayu didn't seem to expect that he would respond, she was unhappy, and said unforgivingly, "Then why are you still sitting around? Why don't you hurry up and find your peach blossoms."
Han Cheng stood up and walked towards the dance floor.
He doesn't really like dancing, and every time he comes to the bar, he just drinks, but he just annoys Yan Jiayu, and when Yan Jiayu stabs him, he stabs back.
He just wanted to pass by the dance floor, get angry with Yan Jiayu, and go to the bathroom on the way.
However, with his appearance, as soon as he walked over, a sharp-eyed boy crowded beside him and asked him with a smile, "Is brother alone? I'll buy you a drink."
Han Cheng wanted to refuse, but he thought of something and replied, "I'll treat you to a drink."
He walked over with the man, sat in his seat, and asked him to order casually.
The boy was also polite, ordered a cocktail, and sat obediently next to him, his eyes stuck to his body, and he couldn't tear it off.
Yan Jiayu didn't expect that he actually brought someone back, her lungs were about to explode, and she was talking strangely.
Seeing his distraught look, Han Cheng felt better.
He seemed to have found a way to deal with Yan Jiayu, he didn't mean that he was flirtatious, then he did what he wanted.
Every time he went to the bar, he would take the boys who deliberately struck up a conversation with him back to his seat, buy them drinks, and occasionally send them home.
Yan Jiayu asked him angrily, "Is that why you don't refuse anyone who comes?"
Han Cheng smiled smartly, "If you don't flirt, it's a waste of youth, didn't you say that?"
The two had a heated argument, and then, entered a cold war.
Friends around him asked him what was wrong, Han Cheng made up an excuse without saying the real reason, he suddenly felt very boring, no matter what Yan Jiayu did or what he did.
When he persuaded others, he was plausible, saying that he should not do things he didn't like for revenge, but when it was his turn, he was still greedy for the momentary pleasure.
He actually doesn't like people who always come to talk to him, and he doesn't like to sit with them.
He was just pure, for the sake of Yan Jiayu.
Han Cheng didn't go to the bar anymore. Others said he had seen enough of the people here, so he changed to other places to go to the bar.
Han Cheng didn't bother to explain, he just went to work quietly.
When the spring was warm and the flowers were blooming, he rescued Bai Jian after delivering the clients.
He sent Bai Jian to the hotel and returned home by himself, but he didn't expect that the two would meet soon on the set.
Cen Yueze invited him to dinner, and after the meal, he went to meet Lu Xue on the set, and wanted her to participate in his company's TV series. Han Cheng accompanied him to the set, and saw Bai Jian who was being bullied on the set.
He helped Bai Jian conveniently, and Bai Jian gratefully wanted to invite him to dinner.
Seeing that Cen Yueze and Lu Xue seemed to need some time, Han Cheng agreed.
They chatted very happily, and the two of them had a lot of common topics. After eating, they naturally added WeChat and got the other party's contact information.
Afterwards, it was as if there was a destiny in the dark. He accidentally sent the wrong WeChat and sent it to Bai Jian. Bai Jian replied to him, and gradually became familiar with him.
By the time Han Cheng found out that he had a different feeling for him, Bai Jian had already finished her job and was sending out new resumes everywhere. She was depressed because she didn't succeed in the interview.
Seeing his depressed look, Han Cheng contacted Cen Yueze and asked him to go to Changle Entertainment's new play.
Bai Jian was overjoyed, but also sensitively felt that the identity gap between herself and Han Cheng was too great.
But Han Cheng didn't say anything, and he was too embarrassed to ask Han Cheng if he liked him, so he continued to maintain this ambiguity.
Until, he struggled with Sun Jun in the film crew and was hit by Han Cheng.
Han Cheng never thought his love would be like this.
He felt sick and angry.
He thought of Yan Jiayu, he didn't understand why every time, he couldn't be his pure self, he had to be someone else's shadow.
He had a dispute with Bai Jian, and Bai Jian cried and said that he did not use him as a substitute.
Han Cheng sneered, "You looked at his face and told me that your feelings for me have nothing to do with him, not even a trace, can you tell?!"
The two parted unhappily.
Han Cheng didn't want to talk to him anymore.
Bai Jian felt that she was too wronged, and she didn't want to contact him.
Neither of them wanted to regress, and then, Bai Jian was injured.
Han Cheng hurried over, Bai Jian said to him with red eyes: "Didn't you ignore me? You go!"
Han Cheng had no choice but to compromise, "I'm sorry."
They reconciled and made their relationship official.
It's just that Sun Jun is like a thorn in Han Cheng's heart.
Especially when Jun Sun also showed up in the ward, visiting him.
Han Cheng hoped that he could leave, he hoped that Bai Jian could draw a clear line with Sun Jun, at least not let Sun Jun appear in their lives all the time.
Bai Jian felt that his request was too selfish, "He is my friend. Although I like you, I also have the right to make friends normally, right?"
"But are you friends?" Han Cheng asked him, "Does he only regard you as a friend? Do you only regard him as a friend?"
Bai Jian had a momentary mood swing, he said, "That was all in the past, we are just friends now."
After that, there was another quarrel.
At the end of the quarrel, Bai Jian cried, and Han Cheng couldn't continue the quarrel. He looked at the crying lover in front of him, and finally, he hugged him and didn't force him anymore.
However, the good times didn't last long. Not long after, Yan Jiayu appeared. He secretly met Bai Jian, told him about Han Cheng's past, and said that he was his first love, his Bai Yueguang, so in order to anger him, he once had One after another, "Go to the bar and ask and you will know. Who doesn't know that Han Ershao is romantic and passionate, and the people who drink with him every day are different. Like you, it means that he is tired of eating big fish and meat. Just try the porridge and side dishes."
Bai Jian looked at him in shock.
After Han Cheng arrived and asked him if it was true, Han Cheng explained it to him, but Bai Jian didn't believe it.
He and Sun Jun went to the bar in Hancheng before, and asked a few waiters here, and found that it was true.
Bai Jian's heart was broken immediately, Sun Jun hugged him tenderly, Bai Jian lay in his arms, crying unceasingly.
Yan Jiayu took a photo and sent it to Han Cheng's mobile phone, letting him take a good look at how the person he likes is snuggling in other people's arms.
As soon as Han Cheng saw Sun Jun in the photo, he became jealous. He drove to the bar and wanted to take Bai Jian away, but Bai Jian didn't listen to him. He was playing, he hugged Sun Jun and did not let go, saying that he liked Sun Jun.
Han Cheng let go, gritted his teeth and looked at Sun Jun.
Sun Jun was very proud, and gently coaxed the person in his arms.
Han Cheng left anyway, he returned home like a trapped animal, but he never thought that he would meet Shen Qingshu the next day.
Shen Qingshu seemed very pleasantly surprised, walked over and said that he wanted to invite him to dinner.
Han Cheng agreed, and as a result, he met Bai Jian and Sun Jun in the restaurant where he was eating.
Han Cheng turned and left, and Shen Qingshu followed.
Sun Jun said, "Look, there is no shortage of people around him. He said yesterday that he only loved you, but today there are no other men by his side? Only you foolishly think that you are special. "
Bai Jian felt that what he said was right, there was so much difference between Han Cheng and him, and he was not him, how could he understand his worries and thoughts?
How could it be possible to really only love him, and grow old with him forever?
But he is still uncomfortable, uncomfortable for Han Cheng's flirtatious and affectionate, uncomfortable for himself now.
Han Cheng had something on his mind, and basically didn't eat much of the meal. When he was leaving, Shen Qingshu asked him if he could leave a contact information. Han Cheng refused, but soon, he found that he met Shen Qingshu again.
Shen Qingshu has changed.
He didn't know what he went through during this time, and it became obsessed with him.
Han Cheng said, "I have someone I like."
Shen Qingshu said, "But he doesn't like you, does he?"
Han Cheng ignored him and left.
Bai Jian's father was sick, very sick, Bai Jian wanted to help the family, but found that he had no savings, so he could only ask Sun Jun to borrow money, but Sun Jun could lend him money, but he couldn't find a better one for him. expert doctor.
Bai Jian thought of Han Cheng, but didn't want to take the initiative to bow her head.
He thought that he had never known him before, and still only found his other friends.
It was Cen Yueze who found out about this from an artist in his company and told Han Cheng.
Han Cheng went to the hospital in a hurry and helped Bai Jian's father involuntarily.
Bai Jian cried for not wanting his help, Han Cheng coaxed him for a while, before Bai Jian finally hugged him, condemning his ruthlessness these days.
Han Cheng originally thought that they were going to get back together like this.
However, he never expected that when Shen Qingshu found Bai Jian, he said, "Do you really think you are suitable? Have you ever done it? We did it. Long ago, before he knew you, we were For the first time for each other, we like each other, so I hope you can give him to me."
Bai Jian looked at him in shock, and then said to him with a sad face, "I wish you happiness."
He had an awkward fight with Han Cheng again.
Han Cheng didn't understand why, until Bai Jian told him Shen Qingshu's original words, Han Cheng said angrily, "I didn't, why do you believe everything they say, why don't you trust me at all?!"
"Because you are such a person, aren't you? With your identity, it's perfectly normal for you to do these things!"
"Is this the kind of person I am in your heart?"
"That's right." Bai Jian looked at him, "Han Cheng, you're not me, so you don't understand, you don't even know how much I have endured during our relationship."
Bai Jian cried aggrievedly.
Han Cheng felt that he was more wronged than him.
He went to Shen Qingshu and asked him why he did this, Shen Qingshu looked at him with persistence in his eyes, and he said, "You are the best person I have ever met, I like you, I want to be with you Together, can't you try to be with me?"
He looked at him in pain, "That night, everything should have happened between us. I met you first. I was so much earlier than him. Why can't he do it but I can't?"
Han Cheng looked at the stubbornness in his eyes, and his heart was full of exhaustion.
He didn't understand why people became like this, just like he didn't understand why he worked so hard because he just wanted to fall in love.
He's tired, he's really tired.
He gave the recording to Bai Jian and told Bai Jian that they were fine.
He sat on the recliner at home, his heart was full of dust.
He still got back together with Bai Jian, when he went to see him after Bai Jian told him that he was not feeling well.
But he seems to have lost the passion and enthusiasm of loving him at the beginning.
——Maybe there was never such a thing between them, but he couldn't remember it.
He was too tired, so tired that he didn't want to recall.
He met Sun Jun again, and he even felt that he was used to it.
I am used to constant quarrels, I am used to getting back together after quarreling, then fighting again, and getting back together again.
Han Yu asked him, "Is it interesting?"
"It's boring." Han Cheng said.
"Then why are you still with him?"
"Because I like it." Han Cheng answered him.
"You really like him?" Han Yu asked.
"Of course." Han Cheng said, "I only like him."
He said it calmly, as if he was stating an ordinary thing. There was no love and light in his eyes, only quietness and stability.
Han Yu thought, is this love?
Then maybe he doesn't need love.
He said, "Xiaocheng, I hope you will be happy."
Han Cheng lowered his head and smiled, "I hope too."
He walked forward in the darkness, and he saw a lamp in front of him, and Bai Jian stood under the lamp, and he knew that it was his future.
Even if there is no light ahead, there will be someone by his side.
He should be very happy, he should be very happy, he should feel very happy, but why is there no fluctuation in his heart?
He stepped forward step by step, he could see Bai Jian standing under the lamp smiling and waving at him, and he could hear him calling his name.
He should return home like an arrow, and should rush to hug him, but why is he not excited at all?
No, Han Cheng thought, there must be something wrong.
He stopped suddenly, looking at the long darkness and loneliness, this is wrong, it shouldn't be like this, he shouldn't be like this.
He stepped back step by step, he saw Bai Jian anxiously calling his name, he saw Sun Jun walking towards Bai Jian step by step, he saw Yan Jiayu walking beside him, and he saw people passing by him one by one Pass.
He searched blankly, as if he wanted to find someone, but he couldn't find it.
His life shouldn't be like this, he shouldn't be like this, who did he miss, who exactly did he miss?
Suddenly, he saw a familiar figure, and he ran towards the opponent desperately. He held the opponent's shoulder and made the opponent turn around.
The man looked at him in surprise and asked him, "Han Cheng, are you willing to promise me to be with me?"
Han Cheng let go, and stepped back unconsciously.
Not him, not him.
He looked at Shen Qingshu in front of him, it was a very familiar face, but he knew it wasn't him.
He couldn't find him after all.
It seems that they have found him, but it is clearly not him.
Did he miss him?
At what time?
Where is it?
He heard Bai Jian calling himself again, one by one, he said, "Hancheng, come here, why don't you come back, don't you like me?"
I don't like you, he heard the voice in his heart.
I do not like you.
I have someone I like, and I don't like you.
How could he like Bai Jian?
He never liked him, he has someone he likes, and he just wants to like him.
However, he couldn't find that person.
Han Cheng looked around, but he couldn't find the familiar figure.
He obviously only wanted to like him, he obviously liked him very seriously, why didn't he show up?
The overwhelming darkness hit him, and the drowning-like suffocation made him unable to breathe.
Han Cheng opened his eyes suddenly, the sky was bright, he looked at Shen Qingshu who was lying quietly in his arms and sleeping, his back was covered with sweat.
He hugged Shen Qingshu tightly, like a poor man hugging his last wealth.
Fortunately, fortunately, he is still there.
——He only wants to like him, among so many people, among those who love him and those who don't love him, he only wants to like him.
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